A quiet night.
Time now is 3:51.
I don’t know why I am still sitting in front of my computer.
Last night the same time, I was looking upon the sky and confusing with my future…every very litte thing in the future.
That is a weakness. I clearly understand that my life was, is , will be in Jesus’s hand.
Everytime I thought of that, Lord reminds me I need to be in His presence and wait upon him.
But at the same my mind pop up another idea.
“The same message again. Are there any answers??…..”
um…
No. Wait upon Jesus is the way. The way to the brightest future.
I believe in you Lord. So please walk with me.
It’s my confession…
Another thing leading to such confusion..is that I see my limitation clearing.
The act “seeing” is not a problem. The sense of powerlessness is the problem.
I discussed my limitations with my fieldwork supervisior.
I tend to be passive most of the time. It put an obsatcle in my life.
Although I don’t need to transform that thoroughly, there is a great sense of pressure in the process of breaking through it.
Passiveness, hesitation, withdrawal…
I think…I think too much again.
That’s why I love strength-based approaches. They help me feel more comfortable as I can see my strengths.
This time is not the time to show the strengths..I think I will do it later.
I am sure it is just one of the sides of me.
My life is still beautiful because Jesus is beautiful.
Lastly,
I really want to be more assertive and confident. I want to recognize myself even the others do not.
And…I did not say many things here. How can I say it…
